I woke up with a sense of purpose this morning. Now, I just have to figure out what that purpose is. Lose weight...yes. Find a new job...maybe. Figure out how to get through to Joy...I hope so. Change anything in my marriage...no way.
There are lots of things that need change, but I am so thankful for my husband. He's constant, plus, he's just enough of a jerk to keep it interesting. :) We're actually a pretty good mix. He wants to make me happy and I want to be happy. LOL. I tell him all the time he can't make me happy. I have to do it myself.
So, to that end, here's what I know. I am a melancholy person. I let guilt and worry get me down on a regular basis. Guilt about just any little thing and worry about even more. My jaw is so tight from gritting my teeth at night, I can't even chew right...which, by the way, might make you think the weight thing wouldn't be an issue...go figure.
Lose weight...I'm just very lazy about doing it. I know I'll feel better, so I'm really going to try. I have a treadmill now and the tools to eat right. So, let's see where we get with that over the next couple of months.
Find a new job...I really like my job, but I'm bored with it. I wish I didn't have to work, but there's nothing to be done about that right now. Maybe someday I won't, but for now, I'm more than willing to do my part for our family. I just think I would like to look forward to work rather than dreading it every day. I know I want to stay with the District, so maybe something will open up soon that I can try for. Or, maybe this feeling will pass. We'll see.
Figure out how to get through to Joy...she is completely disinterested in school and has the grades to show it. I'm completely at a loss here. We've tried just about everything. She just doesn't care. I think our next step may be Sylvan. They can teach her study habits. I just hate to put the money out there if she's going to continue to resist. I just asked her if she had any homework due for the two days she was absent (sick) before spring break and she said, "I don't know. I don't think so." I don't know where I failed, but I must have somewhere (true feelings I have that demonstrate my guilt and worry. Todd's always telling me it's silly.)
So, this is how I reflect sitting here this morning. No one but God knows what the future holds. I will pray and hope for the best.
Sorry I haven't commented on here lately. I've been really lazy about blogging and reading blogs. I thought Joy was doing better, but I guess that was just a phase. You're all in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for the good comments about my son. I think you two are perfect together, too. You make him happy.
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